Forever

It’s garbage day, and today I’m sending away forever. 

So often I get so caught up in the moment, that I confuse it with the rest of my life. Right now actually isn’t forever, and it’s important to remind myself of that. 

I recall a conversation with a girlfriend years ago. I was buried under the reality of being in my early thirties, with a mortgage, car payment, husband, two kids, and going back to school online. She was dealing with the reality that she was in her early thirties and still single. 

I remember telling her that it all changes so quickly, that it isn’t worth getting upset over. One day you’re single and the next day you’re married. It’s FAST. 

What I failed to realize is that it goes the other way, too. Before I knew it, the car payment was gone, and the husband was gone, because he sold the car and got his own apartment. Just like that. I was single. 

And then there was another car payment, and another relationship. None of it is permanent, and my car is paid off now, again. 

My point is that life can be a drag, but it can’t stay the same. It changes, always. If I don’t like today, this week, or this year, it’s okay, because it’s all about to change. 

So in with the amazon boxes that my new cozy sweatshirts came in (because my life changed when I got this puppy and the dog park requires warmer attire), I’m throwing away my fear of permanence. 

I’m in my forties, single, raising two teenagers and a puppy today, but this isn’t my forever. The puppy will become a dog, my teenagers will become adults, and new adventures await. New mortgages, new relationships, new car payments, grandkids and great grandkids. The future is going to happen, and I can stop worrying about today, because that will be over by tomorrow, anyway.